I receive many heart-felt letters from clients sharing their process and stories, after having had a past life reading with me. With their permission, I have decided to share a few of exceptional warmth and clarity. Although the names have been changed, the letters are otherwise unedited. My intention in doing this is to share with others how some people have begun to process and integrate their past lives in this life. The diversity of experience is apparent - some people open easily to the information, while others are not yet ready to hear it. No one's reaction should be judged. Trusting one's process for growth and insight is key to full integration and personal development.
Letter from Mona
I can't tell you how much the reading has meant to me. It makes so much sense and corroborated many memories, feelings, and dreams that I have had. For example, in the past life reading, you told me that my fiance's name was Jacques, (and that we were in the Resistance movement against the Germans) and I had already consciously been hearing that name in the last few months.
One day last year, I was on Amazon.com downloading music. I wanted "Willow Weep for Me." I was looking at the album cover while the song played, not thinking about anything, certainly not a past life. Then the guy on the album cover suddenly looked like he was French, and I got the distinct impression that he was telling me through the song about his grief that I was gone. I knew that he was in the Resistance and was sitting in the woods. It was a profound experience. Sometimes when I would think about it, I would think of him as Jacques! But I told myself that I must be thinking that because Jacques is a common name. Guess I was wrong to doubt.
Regarding my past life in Italy, you described how I was able to break free by being friendly with the head Nazi at that place and pretending to be interested in him. This confirmed (and finished) one of my dreams that I had many years ago. In the dream, I had been in the office/house of this leader several times and was trying to stay on his good side, even though it was disgusting. He sent for me again, and I had gained enough trust to be allowed to walk over to his building without a guard. Instead of going inside, I hid in the bushes under the window and listened. It was still daylight. I was crouching there thinking about how furious he was going to be that I had fooled him and how bad it would be if I got caught running. I knew I was going to go anyway. (I just didn't realize in the dream that I was going to warn someone.) That's when the dream ended. I guess I wasn't supposed to know about my death until now, and it means a lot to me to know about it.
When the Army sent me to northern Italy in 1976, I got a serious migraine at the airport and started throwing up at boarding time. The migraine went away at Rome, but when the bus was near the Army post at Pisa, I suddenly burst into tears and cried like a baby all night and most of the next day. I loved the thought of going to Italy, and I loved being there! Now I completely understand why I had the migraine and why I cried so much.I also cried my eyes out when I had to leave Italy and come back to the U.S.
Although I'm still feeling VERY emotional after the reading, I'm also feeling very much PEACE.
Thank you so much,
Letter From Ryan
(Donna's Note: I told her in the reading that she and her partner where enlisted American Soldiers who took part in the Trail of Tears of the Cherokee. I wasn't aware that she lived near the trail, until she wrote me this email afterwards.
As I shared with you, my house was lost to arson on March 11, 2007. Also in the subsequent weeks the detached garage (which escaped the fire) was robbed of all the inherited meaningful items that I had stored. One of the trails for the forced march that removed the Cherokee from this particular area runs adjacent to this property. This was the community into which I was born and reared...it's NEVER been an easy or pleasant existence for me here as a child or adult, although I have tried to make the best of the circumstances and do what was right as County Health Director for 10+ years.
The airport where O'Neill lost his life is also in this valley and occupies prime village and farming land held by the Cherokee at one time. He was making a late night landing to drop a colleague off and they suspect wild boar crossed the runway interfering with the landing. In aborting the landing, he did not gain clearance of power lines adjacent to the runway. It was a fire-y, violent crash that took his life, the life of his best friend, and left a colleague seriously burned and fighting for his life. He was not always happy in his work as a physician or his personal life, but he was fiercely devoted to serving all patients equally and to the best of his ability.
I find it deeply sobering, and insightful, that he and I encountered such trial and tribulation on the personal and professional levels associated with being in this area. I can only hope that how we have served the community has in some way balanced the negative of the past life regarding the Cherokee. If you have any thoughts on this interpretation, I would be very interested to hear them.
I have heeded your instruction and worked diligently to pray uplifting thoughts for him and visualize him in a positive light receiving God's grace and love. Working hard at holding the tears at bay!!
Many blessings - Ryan
Letter From Carla
Since our session this morning I have been purging and processing - an interesting ride. Icing on the cake: being able to share all with my soul mate husband. We both cried with relief and joy. From the beginning we've known there was a divine purpose in our union, but were confused about what it was. Thank you for helping us find the truth. Major shift.
By the way, a little book that illustrates just what we talked about, 'The Little Soul and The Sun,' by Neale Donald Walsch that claims to be 'A Children's Parable,' is really for adults looking for such answers. We all share this story.
Bless you for being there.
Letter from Victoria
I haven't talked to you in well over two years. Your last two past life readings for me were exceptionally helpful. However, because they were they produced some very major changes in my life that has taken some time to settle down.
For starters, I divorced my husband (not on any recommendation on your part but because I began to see the destructive patterns in my relationship there. I stayed in the marriage after your reading for about a year and was able to really work at the major points of conflict that previously I had not been able to see. I released a lot of anger I had towards my then husband, and at the point where I had no more anger, only love and compassion for him, and yet he could not make peace with me, then I realized it was time to leave. I had no more to learn from the experience and I feel I did my best under the circumstances. I do not feel I will be going another round with him in a future life as I was able to assert my issues with love and he just was not willing to meet me halfway. And that was the big lesson for that marriage: it takes two to create a harmonious relationship. If only one desires harmony and the other doesn't, it's best to send that person your love and leave the relationship. I don't blame myself anymore for the way the marriage went.
I realize it was a joint venture and a learning experience. Interestingly enough, the one thing in your past life reading with my then husband was the way you pinpointed how my husband always blamed me for any problems in the marriage and I always accepted the blame. I had not seen this at all before the reading. It was like it was obvious to everyone else, but to me I was blind. This time, I did not take the blame and there was one point in the marriage when I said to him: "It's like you think it's always my fault." And he admitted it. He said: "Well, yeah!" And then I told him (because he's a very analytical and scientific type): "Do you realize that if I'm ALWAYS at fault, and I am never wrong, that I have just defied the laws of statistics? You are telling me I am ALWAYS PERFECTLY WRONG. I must be some kind of PERFECT PERSON or something to constantly never be in the right when even statistically speaking, I should be right every so often. Just by the laws of chance." That was the first time I saw him actually speechless in one of our debates. I think I hit two or three past lives with that statement. He carries that with him as we parted, realizing that this time around I am not taking all the blame. And he hasn't an argument left as to why I should. So, that took about a year and a half to process and let go. We have been separated for about a year now. I also started to learn a lot more about the bodies energetic system. If you want to see more of my life growth, I'll let you look it up at http://www........ That's the web page I put up. The only thing not on there is the spiritual development group based on the book called "Awakening the Buddha Within" which I am facilitating at my house. I find I have a lot of connections to Buddhism.
I also joined a church that is more metaphysical in nature, going against many years of inbred dogma, dogma that had only served to keep me captive to other people's dramas. Spiritually, I have exceeded my wildest expectations for this lifetime. I am in areas I didn't even know existed just a few years ago. A while ago one of my guides told me that this lifetime has been my best in terms of growth in all my past lifetimes, and I know I have had many. I know that your guidance has been a key part of that growth and I thank you.
Letter from Grace
My name is Grace Cantrell. I don't know if you remember me. We spent two hours on the phone in January, discussing a past life I experienced with my mother, grandmother and aunt (when they were my half-brothers and half-sister). You read all four of us, but only talked to me. We also spoke for some time about upper limits, stemming from my lack of desire to have children.
Since speaking with you, I have attempted consciously to "heighten" my upper limits and I believe I have had some success, although it comes gradually. Thank you!
During your reading, I had some revelations and insights into my current lifetime (and those of my family). I chose to share the reading with my Aunt Theresa (who was my half-sister Michelle). In typing her past name, I just realized that they named her Michelle because our father's name was Michael. I don't know why, but that just came to me out of the blue. A lot of things have been coming to me out of the blue. Are these spurred memories? It feels more as if someone is telling me. What do you think or know about that?
Anyway, I was on the phone to my aunt and I was relating the reading to her in the chronological order you presented it to me. I don't know if you keep notes or copies of the tapes, but when I reached the point where the family had moved to France from England because of the warmer climate, Theresa began to experience feelings that were new to her. I had not yet reached the point where she leaves our father's house and elopes, only to return to face a horrible scene with him, which she does not handle well or possibly ever recover emotionally from. Theresa (I just realized in typing her present name that she was named Theresa because her father's name was Terrence--is there some significance to being named after the father both times?). Anyway, Theresa began to get the chills and feel shaky and weepy (although she was not sad, it was just intensely emotional) and she started to say that she "left England" and when she came back, her father was dead. But he wasn't dead and we lived in France, not England. The reading says that she went to Paris and eloped and when she came back she had a terrible fight with our father (and probably never saw him again). She started to experience conscious recollection of this episode, stating that she saw a dark room with light coming through a curtain and the shadow of a man sitting in a chair (like in a den or parlor). I believe she said there was a drink on the table next to him (the reading said he was a severe alcoholic) and she remembers bounding into the room, like, "I'm back from Paris and I'm married and I'm happy and I'm here to tell you" But the man was--dark? severe? forbidding? Something like that. And she knows they had a terrible fight. She was crying in earnest by this time.
She (and I) have never had an experience like this before. During this point in our conversation, I also had the chills and felt the tingling sensation in the left side of my body (which usually signals me that I am not alone, but I don't know who it is) and felt that she also was not alone and that she was being helped to remember this confrontation because it is critical to her. She also had similar problems with her father in this lifetime (different person--the father in the past life was my grandfather in this life who passed away before I met him).
Also, she had consciously remembered being in a carriage (she believes it was in London), stepping out of the carriage, seeing the long skirts of her fancy dress, and a tall man wearing a top hat reaching out a hand to assist her. She recalled this again during our conversation. She believes that this image was either her husband that she eloped with or the father in a previous life, but not as her father. Although we lived in France, leaving England seems to be the key to her remembrances and she kept repeating that the father and leaving England are somehow critically important and connected.
She remembered all of this on her own before I reached that part in the reading.
I apologize for the long e-mail. I didn't mean to write so much. What I was wondering was, is there a way to delve into this for her through me or should she contact you herself? She's on the web now, too, so I will e-mail your site to her.
There are also some questions I have formed concerning myself since my reading. I have opened myself up to the idea of having children (I never thought that would happen!) and have been presented with images of a little boy twice now right before I fall asleep. He is maybe six months old in the first one and probably two or three years old in the second one. Something about the letter "J". That's all I get. Is he trying to contact me? Have you heard of anything like that before?
Again, I apologize for the lengthy correspondence, but you were so helpful and nice, and nothing like that has ever happened to me or Theresa before, and I wanted to share it and see what your thoughts were.
Thank you for your time!
Letter from Jennifer
I just wanted to drop you a line to again say thanks and to give you an update. After hearing my past life story with Alex I gave it a lot of thought and prayer. My main prayer was for his heart to be healed of the hurt I caused him in that life. About a week or two later I had a dream which was a spiritual dream, not just a regular dream where you try to work through an issue. In the dream we had a moment to embrace, no words, but we were both hearing the same music in our minds. I could feel his heart and emotions and was overwhelmed by the comfort and reassurance that we both experienced. I believe with all my heart and mind that we both received healing during this embrace even though it only lasted a short while.
Since then, I have been relieved of the pressure I'd been feeling about the whole relationship. No more guilt or worry about him. No more sense of urgency to find answers to unknown questions. This burden is no longer my problem mainly because my prayer has been answered in that his heart has been healed. I do still love him but that is the way its supposed to be...we loved each other for too long and too many lives for that to change. The difference is that now I know he'll be ok and I no longer have to feel his pain. That is the relief I have been seeking. Given all of this, I send my sincerest thanks to you for your help in this journey.
Letter from Ellen
I really enjoyed our past life reading together. Especially the last part about my fear of insects really hit home, and I can't say that my fear is completely gone, but in the times since we spoke that I see an insect around me, I am able to calm myself down in a way that I wasn't able to before, and I am happy to say that I haven't killed any. There was one in the hallway of my building that I normally would have stepped on, and this time I just calmed myself, imagined the scene as you told me, and walked around it and kept going. I think with time it will become even easier - so for this alone, I am really happy that I did this.
I had another small question related to the same thing, actually. For one thing, you wouldn't believe how well I handled a situation that typically would have sent me screaming and packing from my apartment. Upon my return from a two-week business trip in Chile, I found a bunch of insect wings on the floor of one part of my apartment. I did some Google searches and all results pointed to the same thing: termites! As most of my furniture is newly bought and made of wood, I was really scared that they would destroy everything I have. I called an exterminator friend to come to check out the situation, and he confirmed that yes, the apartment (which I rent and do not own) does have termite damage, and that the wings are the very beginning stage of them beginning to breed. I had to go a couple of days until he could come again to do the treatment with some, not too many (10-15 probably) little termites crawling around on the curtains of my bedroom near the window. I did pull my bed away, but managed to sleep there without too much worry. When I told my mother, who knew my fear very well (years of me freaking out begging her to get rid of a spider in the bathroom), told me she absolutely couldn't believe that I was actually staying in my apartment, knowing that there was a termite infestation, with termites actually crawling around on the wall above where I sleep.
I am sad to say that I did an extermination treatment against them, and to prevent cockroaches while I am away for a month. I heard your voice in my head during it, about how our parents or dear ones could be those insects, and at the very least are living creatures. I happily allowed a spider to keep living in my apartment the other day, that before our reading, I would have sprayed with Raid and covered with a cup until someone could get rid of it for me. But here I am, paying someone to kill possibly hundreds of insects. I guess my question is, where is the line of what is okay and what isn't? I think most people would say that I was protecting my home, my furniture, my things from being eaten up by termites, but at the same time, probably a lot of them died in the walls. You mentioned that if you find a cockroach or another bug, you kind of trap it and put it outside. I am trying to do the same these days, because you made me conscious of the fact that hey, these are innocent living things that don't want to bother me any more than I want them in my apartment. But what about something like an infestation that can actually do damage to your home?
Best regards, and hope you're doing well :) Thanks again for the clarity.
Letter from Saville
I hope that this email finds you well. My name is Saville and you have read my past lives for me twice before, once in October 2003, and another time, two years ago -this month and day!
I just thought about you and decided that I really needed to email and thank you. I had a life in 14th Century France to where my sister, Rita, (older in that life, but younger in this lifetime) was sick and my parents sent me away to a nunnery. I never forgave them and have had 700 Earth years of suffering since then --until now. I just wanted to say that things are much better for me now. It didn't take me long to forgive them, but I think forgiving myself was harder.
There will always be a difference of opinions between my parents and me (and that's an understatement) --but I know (or have learned) how to handle them. I can't tell you how great if feels to be released from something like that. Words cannot describe it. Days after the reading, two years ago, I could literally feel a heaviness lifting off my heart --literally. I cannot explain it. This journey is one of the hardest things I have ever done. And, quite frankly, I'm glad it's finally behind me.
I cannot explain how lost I was before --and ANGRY --and the fact of not knowing what was at the root of this turmoil. Now, I have such peace and joy in my life --there is a calmness and clarity that I have never known; I never knew all this was possible. Thank you for helping me. I believed you saved my life. Again, there is nothing more horrid, than to be sucked into this whirlpool of anger and your life full of dysfunction and you don't really understand why.
The only thing, that I have trouble with -from time to time ---and it may not at all be related to any of this, but I do feel that rage of anger resurface. --But, Donna, I'm involved with autism groups (my son, Jamie, has this), I fight for equality (gay rights) -I'm bisexual. I get SO angry at the injustices of humanity and what they do to people all over the world: wars, child sex slavery, the Taliban and women and Burkas, Pat Roberston, Jerry Farwell, and the other Right-Wingers, and homeless people in the US (the most powerful wealthiest country in the world --this should NOT exist) --the list goes on --and the madder I get. How can help myself, Donna, that which I cannot control (most of this [I described above] in the world, I cannot control) --do you know what I mean?
Happy Wednesday Afternoon--
Love & Light--
PS: I have taken advise from my preacher and fellow friends: trying to do my hobbies, surrounding myself great, loving and caring friends ---but sometimes I get enveloped still with the anger --what am I not doing right?
Letter from Melissa
While in Fiji recently, I met a woman who does energy readings. So very interestingly, she volunteered the very same information to me that you did about my oldest son and that he was my son in a past life and that he had ended up in the Pacific Northwest previously, living off the land, and we were being given a chance to complete some unfinished issues. She gave less detail that you did, but she was thrilled when I told her about you and what you had already shared with me. I especially loved the part you shared about his living off the land, knowing that he's now a chef and has been told he has a real gift for grilling meat! BTW, my son shared with me that he has always felt drawn to Oregon and now he and his fiance' live in Portland.
Further, you told me that my younger son had died on a battlefield, along with his friends, after having lied about his age so he could get into the military. This helped explain the fact that at his young age he lost a friend to death every year from the time he was 14 until he was 21. Out of his group of friends since junior high, there's only one other left besides himself. So much death and grief has brought him an over-arching understanding of loss and compassion. He's also in no hurry at all to leave home! After reliving his previous losses, now he has a chance to create a new future for himself and find himself in the adulthood he didn't have before. Now he gets to Choose Life every day. I don't expect you to remember our previous conversation, just please know that there have been confirmations and it's been fascinating and beautiful to watch. Thank you for your willingness to share your gift.
Letter from Chris
Hi Donna -
I just wanted to tell you how much I enjoyed the past life reading. You have helped me with the "confusing" issue of why I'm still drawn to a man that obviously doesn't want to see me. It brought tears to my eyes when you saw he was a poet type with feminine characteristics. In this life he has the same qualities.
Even more wonderful than solving the above mystery, is the info regarding me and my husband, John! Just knowing we have reincarnated together is so comforting. In this life John has trouble with self-esteem also. I always thought it was because his Father stayed in an unhappy marriage for 30 years and Jim and his siblings felt those "vibes" and consequently all have self-esteem problems and were not blessed with any problem resolution skills.
I shared your info with my husband. He is wondering if you could tell what his profession/life's work was in earlier lives? You will probably be hearing from us again - I told him after our daughter moves out and our lives get a little more peaceful, we can schedule another reading. He can get on the second phone and be part of the reading.
Thanks again for sharing your talent. Every time I think about the "other" John, I'm doing as you advise . . . let him die in that previous life and let go. It sure helps me move on in this life!!!
God Bless You!
Letter from Catherine
Donna, Thank you for the reading yesterday. I look forward to reviewing the MP3. I must admit that it took me several hours of review in my head to "get it" which I have.
I have a good friend in Pennsylvania whom I just wrote to and wanted you to see what I wrote:
"I am again working on acceptance of myself and those around me with love and acceptance.
Yesterday I participated in a past life reading. My goal: to figure out why Mark and I have these constant battles. We were married in a past life and our 11 year old son whom we loved dearly was killed in a hunting accident. I had told Mark that he was to young to go but Mark insisted that he would be ok. He wasn't ok. I have held resentment and needed to prove that I was right to this day. Which is totally true. I need to forgive him and myself for my constant need to be right. Which really hit the nail on the head.
She told me that I am throwing out negative energy and Mark is reflecting it back to me. Which makes total sense. I know things about myself that I have never been willing to face to anyone outloud, and here she is telling me my deepest secrets about myself that I knew but wasn't willing to accept. I guess I am ready to accept them now and move on with my own growth. I have to stop taking responsibility for Mark and take responsibility for me.
Funny, it takes a past life reading for me to accept this when I have had mental health counselors numerously tell me this, and I wouldn't accept it. I guess I just had to be ready to accept the information."
I am sure I will understand more over time and comptempation.
And thank you again. Anytime you would like to talk just to talk (or e-mail :) ) I am always available.Catherine Top
Letter from Kathleen
Thank you for your reading! I did go visit my Mom. She accepted very easily with some emotion of appreciation the info that she had nursed me and others selflessly in another life. Cried because she wanted to do it this life and felt she'd failed because she didn't. But of - course, she'd Done it!
The death of her dog which "froze her emotional body" as you suggested was never brought up. I alluded to it - a dog she'd lost but she couldn't' go beyond this life time. Like a solid wall there. So it wasn't talked about.
However, her frustration, her anger, her hate for her late husband were all lessened if not gone! She spoke of Dad with gentleness and a hint of love for the first time ever. The room felt so different this time. And we got along famously.
I thank you for your help! For sharing your talent! For your compassion.
Letter from Laurie
I would like to extend my gratitude to you for having given me a PL reading on my birthday. After speaking with you, I haven't had any dreams about people getting murdered or dying. But I have had recurring dreams of waking up in my dreams, sometimes I wake up twice in one dream. And in all of them I always realize I am in a dream but then when I think I wake up, I really don't. Do you have any idea what that could mean? These dreams started when I decided that I wouldn't try Lucid dreaming like you suggested. I am too fearful of what would happen if I tried it. Then all of a sudden I have been getting these dreams.
I have been praying a lot, usually before I go to bed. I had visited a Buddhist temple when I was 13 but I stopped going because the teachings didn't resonate with me at the time. I have been inspired to go back to it again. I have been reciting prayers to Chenrezig and chanting "Om Mani Padma Hum" just as my previous Rinpoche taught me. I find it really warms my heart and makes me very happy.
I am practicing the Who - Cares idea that you spoke to me about. It is hard sometimes not to care but I think about what you said and sometimes it makes it easier.[Donna's note: The practice I spoke of is actually, "Don't care what others think of you", not, "Who cares what others think".] To be honest, it has been a relief. There have been times in the past where I would go out of my way (sometimes to the point of exhaustion) to present myself in a way so that other people would be pleased. After practicing what you said, I feel like there has been a huge set of bricks that have been lifted off of me and I feel so much more free and happy. And when I come out the house looking very silly or like I just walked out of a garbage dump, I just tell myself "I am fool and I love myself! I think I look great!" Just like you told me. :D If I am surrounded by a lot of people who I feel look at me and judge me, I tell myself I don't know what they're thinking and I shouldn't assume. I remember that no matter what anyone else has to think the Universe will always love me as I am and I should too.
After you told me about my past life where I had hemophilia and how I carried with me a lot of guilt, especially about Zachary I have been thinking a lot about it. It explains why I grew up feeling like I could never accomplish anything and why I felt so much like a failure before I even gave myself a chance to fail at all. I feel now that a little part of me has healed, but there is still a lot of work to do. But I find that I am much more supportive of myself than I have ever been. I don't tell myself I am a failure or that I can't do anything right like I used to. And if I do, it is usually a little whisper in my head that I can ignore. Sometimes I find that a part of me (it feels like my heart and soul) is defending myself from my old negative thoughts and habits. Which makes me feel stronger. Naturally of course, my ego would fight back. But I know it's a lifetime project, not a snap-your-finger-and-it-will-all-go-away kind of thing.
I don't feel as much guilt towards how I let Zachary die in a previous life. I know am making up for it in this lifetime by loving him and caring for him the best way I can. Thank you so much for your help and compassion. You are wonderful to talk to you and you gave me the best birthday present I have ever received. :)
Letter from Diana
I guess the best place to start is Thank-you. I had to have a prior history reading to resolve some unresolved issues that had been bothering me for a long time. I trusted that I would find the right person to hold my hand through this passage if I just stayed open and God would point me to them.
Equipped with my internet browser I searched for the key words, "past life regression". I stumbled after many choices on your beautiful web-site. I knew after reading your honest information and autobiography that I had found my "guide" to helping me answer my questions.
My soul has thirsted to understand and resolve some fragments from my past but sometimes life is really noisy and you can't hear or see exactly pin-point what these are without some help. Who could I ask? So many people aren't grounded or believe in their souls being separate living entities other than their physical bodies and their power to go on living.
Just like one would hire a guide to get you through the deep jungle, you were able to see what I couldn't put my finger on and deeply wrestled with to understand for the last 17 years of my life. I waited on pins and needles for our appointment date to come so I could rid myself of that feeling and get my answers. I even had a bad dream the night prior to my call that someone was trying to stop both of us, Donna, from speaking.
After our call I felt as if I could slide out of some of the locks that were taken off of my heart. I could really start focusing on some of the finishing touches of growing and rectifying some of my issues with the additional gained knowledge. It was kind of like going as far as you could on your life's homework and then getting stuck at a certain point where you needed someone to help you figure out the rest of the path to the answers and help you see where you need to fill in the gaps.
I cried after our our call because although I listened most of the time, your reading was right on the mark. Your past life reading of me was so much like my real life. It's no wonder as you had said that there may be a high degree of similarities in a past reading to a current life reading before you started the reading.
It was scary and yet very necessary to realize that I was not imagining things in my everyday life about my inner circle of family and friends. It also strengthened the thought I have made along my private spiritual journey that validated where they had started in my past life and why they started.
I never realized that you could see exact things down to the level of detail that you described. This was in no form doubt on my part simply innocence in the matters of past life readings. I was shocked that each question you had asked me I had physically written down on a piece of paper and you just beat me to asking it during our reading! The same exact questions then you took and looked in for answers and came out with concise answers, WOW! Thanks.
I look forward to receiving you tape and following your suggestions and creative exercises in prayer to tidy up any of the feelings you discussed.
I look forward to being able to give more to my family, Steve and Amy, since now I know I won't have anymore feelings of ambivalence to fear about the past. Now that I know the pertinent "Why's" and "How's" of the past I can rest assured that I can enjoy the present far better.
Thanks for reminding me of my need to improve on communicating and not being such a turtle who goes inward to retreat. Thanks from the bottom of my heart and I wish you much love and happiness. Thanks for sharing your special gift with me. You are very special to me, now, and going forward!
I promise to stay in touch with you, Donna. You will always be in my prayers and a special part of my life!
Letter from Stella
I again want to thank you so much for the past life reading you did for me on Tuesday identifying the causal events for my odd relationship in this life with my friend, Peter. In reviewing the recorded session, I continue to discover parallels between that life and this life, such as the five-year increments, the chronic cycle of "disappearing" then showing up again out of seemingly nowhere, and one most notable connection I did not think of until after our session.
The event in Peter's life that prompted his interest in me again --this round-- was this: Sometime in the past few years he had a difficult period where he lost his luxurious house (not a surprise with his up and down living on emotional and impulsive decisions) AND he was experiencing some sort of health problem where he was nearly debilitated. Perhaps it was his arthritis when it first hit him five years ago (there we go with five years again!) and he was unable to continue his work as an architect. Right when he needed her support and help the most, his girlfriend of several years abandoned him. And he thought, "Stella would never do that." Of course not!
HIS SOUL REMEMBERS!
The second night at the funeral home, when I had planned to set down some boundaries, he avoided me. I finally managed to get him aside so there wouldn't be another public spectacle, and got him to sit still long enough for me to say, "We need to have a mutual understanding of what our friendship is and can and can't be." And he immediately dismissed me, saying "It was all just a joke Jennifer and I made up to see if we could get you to cheat on your husband. Really, I just thought of you that one time." And then he escaped and avoided me the rest of the night.
He didn't even show up for the funeral the next day. And he was texting everyone else there, but never me. Wouldn't even ask for my number. Jennifer is our friend whose mother had just died. She lives on the other side of the country and had to fly her whole family here, take care of her father, make the funeral arrangements, etc. She said, "Right, like I had time to plan a joke."
So it's all the same issues repeated again. He knows he can count on me, he knows I would have taken care of him in his illness, and he's still trying to get digs in at my husband, even though he knows nothing about him!
Thank you so much for showing me this! You are a true blessing and have changed my life, and hopefully his a bit, too. He won't have to deal with me arguing with him anymore at least. And any good karma I may have earned, I ask God to give to him for healing his soul, which is evidently still quite scarred. He so very much deserves a happy and full life. Right now he is so afraid of living and dying alone. The Holy Spirit will give us --his few sincere friends-- the grace to make sure he has what he needs in this life. And that all is proper and right. Thank you so very much!!!
Sending you a heart full of love --Stella